This week I have been struggling with completing my to do list of what needs to be done. I’m finding that my brain doesn’t want to think about anything University related and all I can think about is “what am I going to do when my course is finished?” I wrote a short ill formed poem just to help me get on with the job at hand.
For fucks sake!!!
Why do I lack motivation?
For my own education
Sat on my arse, changing the station
With no motivation
For my own Fucking creation
I want to remove the darken veil from across my eyes and around my neck
No oxygen to think
No knowledge to drink
This destructive path cannot be sustained
My body is numb
Emotions are drained
I feel as though if I do nothing then the time will still come for the end of my degree. Nothing is going to stop time, but it’s just what I do with the time that is remaining. I don’t understand why I am feeling this way. I may be having withdrawal symptoms from coming out of education. However I have had a full time job before for two years before I came to University and I didn’t mind it. But I was relieved when I found out I was accepted for University.
